Unpleasant Surprise

Just when I thought everything is going to fine from now on, I saw you.

I keep on telling myself I am happy now, and that you are part of a distant past that will never recur.

And yes, you are light years away, and yes, your star won't shine down on me anymore.

But why do I still keep on staring at you?

You were my star, you were my light, you were mine - at least in my playful thoughts.

Now the mere sight of your smile breaks my newly found happiness into pieces.

Without even you knowing, without even me knowing why.

Can you please hide into the clouds forever?

I do not want to see you anymore

And I do not want myself to be seen

At least not now, not in the near future

Not when I should already be happy with someone else.

Tama Na

Doesn't matter how sad I made you. Doesn't matter how hard I try. Just remember the same old reason reflected in your eyes you said you wanted me.

Graduate na ako sa pagiging Goodnight Girl. Hindi ko alam kung paano nangyari at bigla na lamang lumitaw ang isang tao na mahal na mahal ako. Hindi ko siya hiningi, hindi ko siya inakit. Sa katanuyan, pinamukha ko sa kanya ang lahat ng kapangitan ko. Pinakita ko sa kanya ang lahat katangahan ko. Pinalanghap ko sa kanya ang lahat ng kabulukan ko. At doon niya ako minahal nang paulit-ulit.

Panahon na talaga siguro upang mabuo ako ulit. Sapat na ang kalungkutan ng nakaraan. Isasarado ko na ang pinto ng kwartong nag-iimbak ng mga inaamag na alaala. Susubukan ko naman ngumiti. Susubukan ko muling maniwala sa pag-ibig.