Senseless

Still beleaguered from my latest developments...

I cannot write a paper out of a stagnating mind caused by corporate mindset and administrative simplifications. As I struggle to get out of the corporate world through gambling this master's degree that promises a research career, I find myself dumbfounded by the same sets of literature which I have been reading (and actually adoring) during my polsci days. What is happening to me? Am I just being too hard on myself? Or am I not giving my utmost capability in the undertakings of my so-called specialization?

Few weeks to go and the term is over. I am afraid to admit that until this very moment, I am still adjusting and still struggling to divide the two worlds I created: my job and my class. Worse is the possibility of not bringing Joyce back to life and to the craft of writing that has been her lifeline in her so-called academic world.